209, 210/365 - Conscious Effort

Martina and her "Kariman" from Mini Stop

My Mom got this miniature sala set from Ilocos Norte

Lately I've been bored to blog. Because I'm lazy. No excuses. However I realized that the root cause of my laziness is similar to my recent losses in my battle with my temper. I was not exerting conscious effort.

When I blogged everyday I was exerting conscious effort to blog. There were times my posts felt forced, but there were also times I wrote pretty good thoughts. Same with my temper. When I am conscious of my effort to control my temper, I manage to police myself and control my temper relatively well.

What happens when I don't consciously put effort on anything? It. All. Comes. Crashing. Down. Trust me, I know. I've experienced it.

Sad to say, I'm only human and an extremely flawed one at that. I can only maintain a level of self-control for so long before I either relax my guard or I get lazy.

Take for example my 3D skills. Since I changed careers I haven't practiced my skills seriously enough. I've always been planning on creating a training program for myself, but up to now I haven't. I need to make a very conscious effort at creating a training program that I can follow and abide by no matter what. Similar to what I am doing with my Project 365 blog.

I'm glad I can still catch myself and force myself to improve. I just hope I can eventually become so consistent that it becomes second nature.

Out.