Well once again another challenge is upon me. I've tried to convince myself to be positive but to be honest it really gets draining trying to find the bright side of things. I'd rather not be specific about it here so I'll just rant about vague things.
I was blindsided by this new turn of events in my life. And like I said above, I'm trying to rationalize that this is a win-win situation. It is affecting me now, in terms of morale and mood. And I am doing my best to stay upbeat.
I guess I could say this could partially be my fault since I was always negative. Maybe the universe just got tired of my non-appreciation of things, I honestly don't know.
Or maybe I'm putting too much thought into things. Maybe this really is just a challenge I have to overcome.
Either way, win or lose, life goes on.
It just gets tiring more often nowadays than when I was younger. And I really, really, really just wish I could give up and just disappear.
Out.
Friday, March 15, 2019
Saturday, March 09, 2019
[803] The Journey
There's a nice line in Aerosmith's song Amazing, "Life's a journey, not a destination." That line stuck to me ever since I first heard the song. That's what life is, basically. It's not about what you end up with, which is basically death, it's what you do before you die.
I have to constantly remind myself of this, now more often than ever. I'm facing greater challenges in life and I can honestly say that I am not prepared for this. Resilience, perseverance, and humility are things I can honestly say I didn't develop when I was younger.
I had it easy. I had it good. I lived in an ivory tower thinking everything was like that. As I grew older the tower crumbled and I faced the realities of life. Life isn't harsh, life is life. If you think it's harsh then it is. If you think it's a series of challenges you overcome then it becomes that way.
And that's how I'm trying to survive now. I keep trying to convince myself, and to remind myself, that life is a series of challenges that I will have to overcome one way or another. Giving up wouldn't be a good idea, and neither would running away from things.
This is the hand I've been dealt with recently and I have no choice but to face everything. I have no idea how I'll overcome these challenges but I guess that's also part of the journey.
Lately I've been so tempted to do the wrong things like give up or start acting like more of an asshole. So far I'm glad I cannot bring myself to do these things. I guess I still have some fight left in me. I just hope I don't run out of it.
Out.
I have to constantly remind myself of this, now more often than ever. I'm facing greater challenges in life and I can honestly say that I am not prepared for this. Resilience, perseverance, and humility are things I can honestly say I didn't develop when I was younger.
I had it easy. I had it good. I lived in an ivory tower thinking everything was like that. As I grew older the tower crumbled and I faced the realities of life. Life isn't harsh, life is life. If you think it's harsh then it is. If you think it's a series of challenges you overcome then it becomes that way.
And that's how I'm trying to survive now. I keep trying to convince myself, and to remind myself, that life is a series of challenges that I will have to overcome one way or another. Giving up wouldn't be a good idea, and neither would running away from things.
This is the hand I've been dealt with recently and I have no choice but to face everything. I have no idea how I'll overcome these challenges but I guess that's also part of the journey.
Lately I've been so tempted to do the wrong things like give up or start acting like more of an asshole. So far I'm glad I cannot bring myself to do these things. I guess I still have some fight left in me. I just hope I don't run out of it.
Out.
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