Friday, February 24, 2017

[744] Wishlist

There were a lot of things I was planning on purchasing this new year. Unfortunately due to things that were beyond my control I lost the financial flexibility to do so. However once I'm back on my feet I may just buy some of the things I was planning on getting. Here they are in no particular order.

  1. A new laptop. I have been planning on getting one since last year, and thank goodness I haven't bought one yet. Since there are already some laptops getting the newest GT1080 video cards, or variants of that video card, I can wait until more laptop models come out with the latest video cards before I make my new decision. Hopefully the prices also drop before I decide to buy.
  2. Substance Designer and Substance Painter. This was the year I was supposed to try this out at work. We all know how that ended up. Okay, you may not know but I do. And since these two are pretty expensive I don't think I can afford both at the same time. But I am definitely getting these once I get a new laptop.
  3. New sneakers. I've been doing brisk walks at least three times a week and I have lost weight, but that's another story. However my walking shoe isn't really something I'd consider as a good walking shoe. I need a better pair of sneakers that I can not only use for walking but also for going out. My latest target is the Nike Metcon 2 Flywire.
That's it. And yes, it will cost a pretty penny. I would have bought these one at a time during the year but since my plans were changed, I guess I have to adapt and rise above it all.


Monday, February 06, 2017

[743] Introspection

I guess right now I am living in the "when the going gets tough, the tough get going" phase of my life. I have to say that I was totally unprepared for the trials I have been experiencing in my life since 2017 rolled around.

Sure, there are plenty of things to be thankful for. And if I shifted perspectives I'm sure I could find the positives in what I am currently going through.

I'm not like that right now, however. I have a hard time accepting the positives when I had so many great plans for 2017. So many plans brought to a sudden halt because of what happened last January 6, 2017.

And now as I am scrambling to find a new normal in my life, I find myself at times feeling very, very depressed.

I am not used to this, and I should never be used to this. I must strive and overcome.