Thursday, December 31, 2015

[709] 2016

It is now around 10:52pm Metro Manila time as I start to write this post. In little over one hour it will be a new year here.

Hopefully the new year brings joy, good vibes, and positivity to everyone. Also more peace and love to all - humans, animals, living creatures. We all live in one Earth and I think we all deserve to live here in harmony.

I also hope the lessons I learned in the past I can retain, and hopefully I won't repeat the mistakes I did before.

Happy New Year everyone. I do hope I can blog more next year.


Saturday, December 12, 2015

[708] I Have a Bad Feeling About This

Something isn't right. I cannot pinpoint what, but there seems to be a nagging feeling of something wrong in my gut.

Maybe I'm just paranoid, maybe I just think too much. I can't even analyze what it is that has been bugging me the past few weeks.

Is it my mortality? When I was younger I had this arrogant attitude of thinking I was ready to die anytime. It was the arrogance of youth and I'm glad that I didn't die then. However now death scares me.

Maybe because it's the unknown. You don't know what happens when you die. Does your brain shut down like when you sleep? Or do you just, I don't know, stop? What happens, what about all the dreams and goals in life you still want?

I don't want to die. Not yet. I want to achieve my dreams, I want to be able to find the inner peace I envy from so many people I meet.

I want to gain the courage to accept my mortality.


Saturday, December 05, 2015

[707] Adaptability

Everyone should be familiar with the saying "Jack of all trades, master of none." It basically means you can do a lot of things, but that you can't do any of them great. I usually hear it get used in a negative sense, meaning someone can do a lot of things but can't do them all in an exemplary way.

Well here's another perspective I just realized about jack of all trades. They are masters of something -- adaptability.

What do I mean by this? It means these do-it-alls can adjust and conform to whatever life throws at them. They can do almost anything which makes them pretty useful to have around. Specially if these "jacks" are pretty good at adapting.

Which brings me to this: I am now a VFX game artist for my current employer. I applied and was accepted as an animator, but because of my willingness to try new things I volunteered to help our relatively small VFX team.

I may not be as good as the software engineers we have on the team, but so far I can sort of hold my own with the requirements.

I never imagined I would do well, at least by my standards, with the VFX team and yet here I am doing pretty well and having quite a blast doing it. I guess because being a VFX artist involves having an artistic side to create the textures needed for the VFX as well as having a, er, "logical" (can't think of how to describe software engineers) side to implement the VFX in the game engine.

Thank God I was blessed with the ability to learn quickly. I believe I am not a hindrance to the VFX team, and I would like to think that I am helping a lot by being one of the two main guys who produces textures.

So if anyone calls you a jack-of-all-trades, try seeing it from another perspective. It might be the best compliment you can get.


Thursday, December 03, 2015

[706] My Luxury Christmas Wishlist

Last post I gave you my practical wishlist. This time it's the luxury wishlist.

1. The latest iPad or iPad mini - My iPad2 is old, and I want to keep playing the games I downloaded. I find it useless (and expensive) to buy a new one.

2. The best 15" Alienware laptop available - I have no idea what it is. I do know I want a new laptop that can handle the latest games with ease. Plus I'm a sucker for some brand names, and Alienware is one of them. I also want a slightly bigger screen for the laptop.

3. Both a new PS4 or a new XBox One - I will mostly play racing games, and I want to try both Forza 6 and whatever Gran Turismo comes out for the PS4. However either one will do. I'm guessing the newest Need for Speed will be available for both consoles, as well as whatever new Grand Theft Auto comes out.

4. A Tiny House of my own design - I'm still obsessed with them, I just don't blog about it that often.

5. White 2015 Subaru WRX A/T with Brembo GT Kit front and rear and red or black HRE rims - Because I'm a car nut, and this car and those mods are available here in the Philippines.

Anyway I'm actually pretty happy with my life right now, these so-called luxury items are things I don't really need. I wouldn't mind owning them, but I don't mind not owning them either.