There's a nice line in Aerosmith's song Amazing, "Life's a journey, not a destination." That line stuck to me ever since I first heard the song. That's what life is, basically. It's not about what you end up with, which is basically death, it's what you do before you die.
I have to constantly remind myself of this, now more often than ever. I'm facing greater challenges in life and I can honestly say that I am not prepared for this. Resilience, perseverance, and humility are things I can honestly say I didn't develop when I was younger.
I had it easy. I had it good. I lived in an ivory tower thinking everything was like that. As I grew older the tower crumbled and I faced the realities of life. Life isn't harsh, life is life. If you think it's harsh then it is. If you think it's a series of challenges you overcome then it becomes that way.
And that's how I'm trying to survive now. I keep trying to convince myself, and to remind myself, that life is a series of challenges that I will have to overcome one way or another. Giving up wouldn't be a good idea, and neither would running away from things.
This is the hand I've been dealt with recently and I have no choice but to face everything. I have no idea how I'll overcome these challenges but I guess that's also part of the journey.
Lately I've been so tempted to do the wrong things like give up or start acting like more of an asshole. So far I'm glad I cannot bring myself to do these things. I guess I still have some fight left in me. I just hope I don't run out of it.
Out.
