[747] Before May Ends

I would just like to post that I am still alive and trying to recover from this shitstorm that I call 2017. I cannot wait for this year to get better.

And don't go telling me, "Oh it's all about your attitude. YOU are the one making 2017 suck." Comparing your problems with mine will always result in one winning and one losing. I see things this way and I try to find ways to cope.

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[746] Musings About Myself

Today marks the end of my really long, unplanned vacation. Tomorrow is a new beginning. Short term I have a future again. Medium term the outlook is also good.

Long term is still the biggest question mark. I am still unsure of the long-term future, and if I can be the provider I should be for my family. At least for the short-term things are looking good.

If you still don't understand my post, basically I'm starting work tomorrow. It is a freelance job for about a month. It's still work. Something I haven't done since basically the first week of January.

After that the good news is that I passed one of my entrance exams with a company. I just need to schedule my interview with them and pass that and I will have a steady source of income. Aside from that I am still waiting for the results of another exam I took for another company.

We shall see what happens. I am thankful for all the people who helped me during my down times, and all the people who helped me find employment. I was very happy and surprised that someone I worked with years ago also helped a lot during these times.

I just hope that this is the start of greater things for me in 2017.

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[745] "Marchless"

It looks like I did not post a single thing for March.

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[744] Wishlist

There were a lot of things I was planning on purchasing this new year. Unfortunately due to things that were beyond my control I lost the financial flexibility to do so. However once I'm back on my feet I may just buy some of the things I was planning on getting. Here they are in no particular order.

1. A new laptop. I have been planning on getting one since last year, and thank goodness I haven't bought one yet. Since there are already some laptops getting the newest GT1080 video cards, or variants of that video card, I can wait until more laptop models come out with the latest video cards before I make my new decision. Hopefully the prices also drop before I decide to buy.
2. Substance Designer and Substance Painter. This was the year I was supposed to try this out at work. We all know how that ended up. Okay, you may not know but I do. And since these two are pretty expensive I don't think I can afford both at the same time. But I am definitely getting these once I get a new laptop.
3. New sneakers. I've been doing brisk walks at least three times a week and I have lost weight, but that's another story. However my walking shoe isn't really something I'd consider as a good walking shoe. I need a better pair of sneakers that I can not only use for walking but also for going out. My latest target is the Nike Metcon 2 Flywire.

That's it. And yes, it will cost a pretty penny. I would have bought these one at a time during the year but since my plans were changed, I guess I have to adapt and rise above it all.

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[743] Introspection

I guess right now I am living in the "when the going gets tough, the tough get going" phase of my life. I have to say that I was totally unprepared for the trials I have been experiencing in my life since 2017 rolled around.

Sure, there are plenty of things to be thankful for. And if I shifted perspectives I'm sure I could find the positives in what I am currently going through.

I'm not like that right now, however. I have a hard time accepting the positives when I had so many great plans for 2017. So many plans brought to a sudden halt because of what happened last January 6, 2017.

And now as I am scrambling to find a new normal in my life, I find myself at times feeling very, very depressed.

I am not used to this, and I should never be used to this. I must strive and overcome.

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