I Would If I Could

Right. It's 11:23pm and I'm at work waiting for some renders to be done. Looks like I'll be staying here for the night. Not that I mind...

I was actually looking forward to this night. I knew the possibility of a sleepover (if you could call it that, more like workover) at work was high, because I need to finish something for a project which is due tomorrow.

After a good dinner with my director and colleague I was ready to hit warp speed with what I'm doing. I had a plan of attack, and I knew how to resolve the problem.

Except my stupid workstation doesn't want to cooperate.

Understand, this is a pretty cool PC. It's fast and it's built for 3D. Dual core AMD processor, 2GB of RAM, a video card dedicated to doing 3D (one of them nVidia Quadro super expensive video cards that work well with Maya but isn't for games). But my PC is a lemon.

Ever since I got it it has been rebooting on its own, very sudden. Batch rendering in Maya isn't reliable as it can't seem to finish a whole batch render. Either it gets a fatal error or it says the rendering is complete, when in fact it is not. It won't even render sometimes.

So what am I getting at?

I'm pissed, and frustrated. My old single core PC was more reliable than this crap-heap I call a workstation. The sad part is this is only happening to my workstation. My officemates with the dual cores all have reliable PCs.

I can't even render simple particles right now.

And here I thought I could finish what I was supposed to do.

Dammit.

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Updates and Randomness

This is it. It's been quite some time since I posted anything here. And I just recently posted a link to find out what kind of pie you are (I was mud pie - yum yum).

So it's time for another installment of updates and randomness.

• For starters I've been "religiously" going to the gym three times a week for the past how many weeks now (I think it's been five or six). I still haven't lost much weight, probably because my eating habits remain largely unchanged, but my stamina and overall feeling has improved. I don't get short of breath that often and I feel lighter on my toes. Thanks in large part to the fifteen minutes of cardio I do before every weight training session. Next up? A new program dedicated to improving my physique so I can play basketball a lot better.

• Met up with my high school classmates for dinner at Dayrit's. They finally met Maica and after dinner I followed to Ferds' house for some beer drinking and catching up. Most were surprised that Maica and I have been going steady for the past eight years. And I was also surprised at how much we've changed, physical and attitude-wise, over the years.

• I recently had my hair clipped off. Gone are the long "locks" of hair I once had, and replaced by bristle like hairs. Why'd I do it? The usual answer is because of the heat, but honestly? I don't know myself. It was a spur of the moment decision on my part.

• A surprising, and happily welcomed, event that has happened twice to me recently was that I dreamt of my grandmother who passed away. And now the dreams I see her in are what I would describe as happy dreams. Not dreams where I wake up sad or pissed off that she's gone. So I guess that means I've finally come to terms with the fact that she's gone.

• Work has been the same. Same old, same old. If only I could write about what I really thought, I would. But let's just say I can't. And if you like metaphors, this stone is starting to get a little mossy, if you know what I mean.

So that's it for now, I guess. Gotta catnap before work starts since I'm still trying to catch up on sleep. If anything of importance happens, I'll most probably blog about it.

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What Kind of Pie Are You?

Nicked this link off of a discussion group in Flickr...

You Are Mud Pie

You're the perfect combo of flavor and depth Those who like you give into their impulses

What Kind of Pie Are You?

Scenes From A Memory

My impulsiveness (if there is such a word) reared it's ugly head again Sunday.

I decided to try and archive my old negatives from my SLR shoots. Its a tedious task and I hate tedious tasks. But since I wasn't doing anything that day, and I was feeling productive (since I had to store water for the house that day also since our help was out) I decided to give it a shot.

It was nice to reminisce about old photographs. It was nice to see the development of my technique, and the improvement of my compositions. At least for me they were improvements.

It also reminded me of happier memories. Like the time October 2005 that we celebrated my uncle's 25 years of being a priest. I volunteered to be the official photographer for his celebration and I used three rolls or so of film. I saw those three rolls and archived them. Then the next roll I find and archive I see his lifeless body staring out through the glass of his coffin. He passed away almost exactly one month after his celebration of cancer.

I'm just glad I was able to ease his pain because when I sent him the pictures of his anniversary my father said it brought a smile to his face.

Then I also saw pictures of my grandmother who passed away last year. I took some portraits of her at our garden when she was still strong. I saw the photographs of her and gave them to my mother.

I also saw our dead dog, my favorite dog who passed away last October.

Memories. Some good, some bad.

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Yearning for Freedom

Yearning for Freedom
Originally uploaded by Gani.

Just this morning I deleted most of the pics I uploaded on Flickr. Don't ask me why. I just did.

Maybe because I no longer have a pro account and my pics were over 200? Maybe because I just got a new DSLR and would like to start all over? Maybe because (perish the thought) I'm getting bored with Flickr?

I still want to shoot. I still love to shoot. Its just that my priorities have shifted. Drastically? Dunno. But I *am* getting older and I have lots of other priorities that I have to attend to (like the gym).

So I guess I really don't know the real reason why I deleted the pics. It could be a combination of the above, I don't know.

Anyway look out because I'll be shooting again, but the uploads will be less frequent. And the pics more selected.

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