Something to Cheer Me Up

I got this from Third's blog. I took the quiz and this is what came out. It is sort of flattering, but some of it doesn't seem to match me, personality-wise. And yet I answered the quiz honestly. Strange.

I'm a Honda S2000!

You live on the edge, and you live for the adrenaline rush. You don't need luxuries, snob appeal, or superfluous gadgets. You put your top down, get your motor revving, and take all the curves that life throws at you at full speed. So what if you spin out occasionally?

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

I Need to Vent

I need to vent. Lots of things eating me up. My angst is still here and it's been rubbed the wrong way. Plenty of times. And if I don't vent here then I just might snap.

Why is it some arrogant people act that way? Don't they know how to get along with other people? Wala ba kayong pakikisama sa ibang tao? Bakit kami ang dapat makisama sa inyo? Bakit di kayo makisama sa amin? Can't you guys (and gals) lower your pride enough to meet halfway? Or at least treat me as a human being.

Tangina kasi kayo, asta kayo ng asta. Wala namang ibubuga. Puro yabang wala namang maipakita. Puro dada, wala namang gawa. You fuckers can't walk the walk but you sure do know how to talk the god-damned motherfucking talk.

Talk. Talk. Talk. Full of air, full of bullshit. That's what you fuckers are good at. Impressing people with first impressions. That's it. Sure first impressions count. But if your first impression is totally different from who you really are, good luck with life.

Assholes.

I try to treat people the way they treat me. Be kind to me and I do the same. Treat me like shit and I will treat you worse. But for some pompous windbags out there they think that I started everything. Because in their world, they are infallible. Well fuck that shit.

If killing were allowed, I'd be dead. And I'd probably have killed some people too.

But no, that IS wrong.

So I force myself to try to get along with everyone. That's how my folks taught me to be. Respect everyone.

Well respect should be given, then earned. You respect a person if you meet him/her for the first time, but when you see how he/she really is, that's when you give the respect he/she deserves.

Kaso ang problema diyan yung ibang tao wala pang ipagmamayabang akala mo na kung sinong sugo ng diyos. Ulol. 'Tado. May araw din kayo, tangina niyong mga hindot kayo.

I wish I could act like them. Be like them. Assholes. Pompous windbags. Mga bolero. Bullshit artists. But no. I'm better than that. My folks made me better than that.

The world ain't fair. If it was there would be no negative stuff here. But it isn't fair. So I have to learn to live with these things I encounter. And I do try to live with them.

But that doesn't mean I can't vent about them, right?

Better watch out, assholes. Your day will come.

Out.

Of Giant Robots and Alien Invaders

So I have in my DVD collection (MCS edition) a large number of anime series. I am most proud of my Shin Getter Robo and Mazinkaiser DVDs, since I grew up watching the forefathers of these relatively new animes.

Shin Getter Robo and Mazinkaiser are remakes of the popular Go Nagai cartoons Getter Robo and Mazinger Z. Although the new releases are so far off the original story that I am sort of confused with what's going on. Take, for example, Shin Getter Robo. In the series I got (Armageddon) there are dozens of Getters strewn about. I thought there was only supposed to be one? And in Mazinkaiser there were already two Mazingers in action before the former arrived.

Not that I mind, it makes the story more real to have more than one giant robot. It's just that I'm only starting to catch up with their stories now. So I have to do "research" online to find out what I missed.

Fortunately not all of them are related, story-wise. I think Shin Getter Armageddon's story is not connected to the original. At least I think that way because I know Benkei died in the original and was replaced by Musashi. Plus in Shin Getter Robo vs Neo Getter Robo, Musashi dies too. Well, he does die in Armageddon, leaving Benkei the lone Getter 3 pilot.

I'm starting to ramble here.

Anyway I just finished watching all Mazinkaiser and Getter Robo DVD's I have and I must say that the art is awesome. There's something about anime that I really enjoy, specially the style of art shown in the anime I watched. Heavy trace lines, nice colors.

And the perspective when the super robots pose. Ahh. I know when they are drawn that all rules of perspective and foreshortening are broken, but there's something about the way they pose. You know the perspective isn't right, but the way they pose is still so damn heroic. And awe inspiring. Makes me want to draw again.

I feel lucky that I was born when I was. I know there will be more improvements in the future that I may not get to experience, but now is the perfect time to be alive. You have a wide collection of DVDs available (in MCS and also the legit kind). And you can find almost anything you want on DVD. Cartoons, TV series, old movies, NBA games, wrestling, and others.

But back to the topic.

I noticed that in both Mazinkaiser and Shin Getter we always end up fighting some sort of alien invader. And I find it strange that only one (or a few) super robots can hold off a huge-ass horde of alien invaders. Why do they strike one robot at a time? What are our giant robots made of? How come they don't blow up as easily as our airplanes and why can't we make airplanes made of the same metal as the giant robots?

Coming from a fan these questions are stupid. You're supposed to suspend your disbelief and enjoy the show. But if you ever want to make a parody of super robots then you could probably think those questions and add them to the story.

That's it. Off to breakfast.

Out.

Unsolicited Advice

I'm sure some of you have gotten advice from others. Most of them are helpful, some are not, and there are times when you just want to ask the person if he/she is high on drugs.

I don't mind getting unsolicited advice. Provided that the advice I get is from a legit source of advice or if that person actually knows what's going on and wants to "help". It's always best to listen to advice, then decide if you want to follow through on it or not.

Take work, sometimes some of my veteran officemates will offer me tips on how to execute my 3D tasks better and faster. Of course I'll listen. They know what they're talking about, they know it works. Besides, one of the major reasons I've gotten better in 3D is because of them.

Or if someone I know just experienced something bad and he/she wants me to avoid suffering the same fate. If he/she just suddenly chimes in and tells me something, sure. I'll make a mental note out of it. Why? Because he/she has gone through with it and knows how to deal with it.

What I really hate is people who just butt in, don't have a clue what's going on, and start blasting away with their suggestions. They probably think they're helping, they probably think they know what's best. But please, who asked them? Do they know what's going on? Do they know anything about the topic?

In one of the forums I regularly go to, there's this one annoying member who keeps posting paragraphs upon paragraphs of "advice". More like orders, if you ask me. He posts them and expects people to follow them. Then if he asks another member a question and that question is not answered, he follows up on his question in a not so nice way.

Who the hell does he think he is? I don't mind if he gives his advice, I mean, it's a public forum anyway. What I don't like is that he keeps giving advice, acting like he's the damned authority on things, but I have not seen one shred of evidence to believe that he is actually an authority on whatever it is. He's got no cred, to put it in street terms.

Just keeps blasting away at the keyboard, acting like he's the best and all. Why, because he's not in the Philippines? Because he's earning dollars and getting to see sights not all of us here can see? Because his English is good? Hell, I write good too. My grammar is okay and so is my English. Do you see me writing long paragraphs? (In public forums, not in my blog. I OWN this blog, hence I can do whatever I want in this blog.)

My point is, if you want to give unsolicited advice, just make sure that you don't come off as too all-knowing.

And to people who will read this who might get offended, I'm not dissing any of you. I'm just letting out how I feel. If you can't stand the heat, get out of hell, er, the kitchen. Then again, this could be my unsolicited advice for you.

Sheesh.

Out.

Testing...

If this posts then fine. If it doesn't you'll never know.

Dammit. My brain is fried. Too many thoughts, too many troubles. Or are they all figments of my imagination? Perhaps they all don't belong. Perhaps they just show up because of the way I am, the way I think.

My mind is headed for oblivion. I seek the solace of emptiness. I need a break from reality and run away to a nice, safe place. If only for a while.

I need freedom, I need peace of mind. I need a million dollars to, but hey, you can't always get what you want.

I need to free myself from myself. To release the real me, and not the angst-ridden, idealistic, angry, rambling, intense, slothful me. I need to act my age, I need to answer to my responsibilities. I need to grow up.

I need a lot of things.

But I can't give myself those things. I do not know why. You cannot teach an old dog new tricks. Unless I suffer something life changing I will have a hard time breaking out of this funk I am in. And the only way to break out of this funk is to shut down, re-format, and reboot myself.

How will I do that when the only thing that is keeping me sane is my current self?

I am close to breaking down, maybe because I think too much. Because I pay attention to things which I should not be paying attention to. Maybe because my priorities are all in the wrong places.

Excuses, excuses, excuses.

Fuck this all. I just needed to get this out of my chest. If this publishes, great. If this doesn't, then I keep another secret with me.

Don't mind me, I'm just ranting.

Out.

Survey Says...

I stumbled across these series of questions from Third's blog. I thought it might be fun to answer them myself. So...

WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? plain white shirt
WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST? what friend's list?
DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST? what friend's list?
HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE? what list are you talking about?
HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? 2 to 3
DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS? not as good but pretty well
WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE? Crisostomo Ibarra
WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX? no thanks
WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-DAY? had dinner at Teriyaki Boy
WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE? Daimos, the animetal version
TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY? 8:30am, thank some higher power it's Sunday
WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO? playing my trusty PS2
DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED? no
NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO? get rich
TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM? just a few minutes ago
WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? less weight
IF YOU HAD 300,000 DOLLARS... WHAT 5 THINGS WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
1. save $100k
2. invest $140k++ to Canada (instant citizenship)
3. buy a house in Canada
4. and a nice SUV
5. furnish the house
HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM? ah, this survey came from myspace.
WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING? none. I'm still in my pajamas.
LAST THING YOU ATE? taho
WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH? July
YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? April
WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE? a shirt, I guess
WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW? some people I'd rather not tell anyone
MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? mail.yahoo.com
LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? my high school classmate
FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK(S)? san miguel pale pilsen, san mig light, red horse
YOU BEEN TO EUROPE? nope
IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? thank all the gods of every religion
HAVE YOU KISSED SOMEONE IN THE PAST WEEK? define "kissed"
IF YOU COULD TELL YOUR LAST EX SOMETHING WHAT WOULD YOU SAY? i've no ex as of this moment
HOW MANY PIERCINGS DO YOU HAVE? none
TATTOOS? none
IF YOU COULD GET PIERCED ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD YOU GET IT DONE? left earlobe
WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF? needles, anything supernatural, lotsa things
DO YOU LIKE BEING ON STAGE WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE WATCHING YOU? depends
WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT TO THE MALL? Thursday.

and that's it.

Out.

News, Notes, and a Fond Farewell

It's Saturday once again, the only time I may borrow the modem at home to write a blog. And here we go.

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The Mazda 323 Familia, which was my primary car, was sold last week. It was picked up last Tuesday. Fare thee well, you may have been a headache but I still had plenty of fond memories of you.

One man's garbage is another man's treasure.

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I've been listening to Animetal at work. I think that's the name of the band. They play classic Japanese anime and sentai tunes only in a progressive rock style, at least that's how I categorize them. You can look for them in here.

My personal favorites are Daimos, Mechander Robot, and Bioman.

Memories.

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Had to wade through knee deep waters along Pasong Tamo corner EDSA yesterday. The reason?

Yesterday was Sir Dani's birthday and there was supposed to be a surprise dinner for him at 8pm. So my officemate, Kem, and I head off to Makati Cinema Square to pass time. Sadly the rain got to us first.

We made it up to the corner of Mitsubishi Motors along Pasong Tamo but the flood waters were rising. After agreeing to our taxi driver that it was pointless to go on, we turn around and ask to be dropped off at EDSA.

Sadly that area was flooded too. So we cross the safety tape that blocked the way to what was once the big ass building that sold furniture. It was destroyed by a fire a couple of months ago. But the flood was everywhere. So my new Sambas were soaked. Dipped.

Kem and I decided to just go home, lest we get sick.

Damn poor sewer system. Lousy.

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And that's it. No other news I deem worthy of telling anonymous people out there.

Out.

Blogging at 7:35am

Good morning, blogdom.

This will be a long blog, if I see things right. Going to write a lot of things that I can think of and take advantage of the fact that I can blog at home, not like at work where the damn Freeproxy won't let me publish my well-thought-out posts.

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First off, I concede to my PC. Sure I got it running again smoothly. But the viruses are in full bloom. The C drive is so full of multiplying files which I can't remove. McAfee can't seem to detect them. Weird.

So what's the plan for my dear DarthVader? Well I guess it has to be a total re-format of the drive C. I have to back up all pictures and important files in My Documents. Then wipe the damn 40GB hard disk clean of any virus.

After the re-format I guess it's re-install everything. Again. Then I HAVE to install an anti-virus, a firewall, and an anti-spyware program. Before I connect to the net.

That's where all the trouble began anyway. I connected to a DSL connection without protection. Damn. Lesson learned. The hard way.

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It's just that if I didn't try to connect with my PC then my dad would have canceled the DSL connection we had because it was so damn f*cked up we couldn't connect using my folks' old iMac for two or three weeks since we got the DSL connection.

If I didn't show them that we could connect then goodbye DSL. Whatever.

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Ah well. This PC's a work-in-progress anyway. Though I do have plans on what to do with this thing already. I plan on getting either a newer, better motherboard, or a DVD-writer. Then I'd either sell my old CD-writer or give it to someone who needs it. We'll see.

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Went to Quiapo yesterday with my friend. I finally saw where Henry's was. They sell and repair cameras. I saw my dream camera, the Canon 30D.

Sadly it will stay a dream camera. Because it's too expensive for what I'm earning right now. I can afford a Canon 350D, and I am leaning towards that since my friends all have a good point about why I should get the latter rather than the former.

First, I won't recoup my "losses" if I get a 30D since I am not a pro photographer. I am just a hobbyist. Second, all DSLRs are basically the same. Some are just more durable than others, and some have higher megapixels than others. But again, you only need a high megapixel DSLR if you're planning to shoot photos for posters and billboards. Which I do not do. Finally, and the best argument if I may say so, I can't afford the 30D now, but I can afford the 350D.

'Nuff said, natch.

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We're selling our old reliable '96 Mazda Familia. It is color green and has automatic transmission. I'm sure some of you have read the harsh words I've written about the car. And while some of them are true most of them are also exaggerations.

Because lets face it, I'm a "young" person who's into cool cars and racing so of course I'd dis our Mazda. Besides, one man's "car-bage" is another man's treasure.

It gets you from point A to point B, rather comfortably. It can still run at a good speed. There are some gremlins in the car but I'm sure they can be fixed, its just that we keep sending the poor car to stupid car repair places who think they know what they're doing. Then instead of making the car run better it gets worse.

Seriously, at first I was impressed with this repair shop. They were big, many branches, and at first they fixed the initial kinks of the Mazda. Then after the last service the Mazda starts acting weird all of a sudden. So beware this shop, I warn ye. I won't tell you what the name of the shop is but I am unimpressed with their service already. The name starts with R and ends with apidé.

So if anyone out there is interested in buying our car just contact me or leave a comment with your e-mail address. Philippine residents only please.

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For any spellcheckers out there who read my blog. Sorry for some wrong spellings and grammar. I've no time to go over my blog more than once and I'm really more a spur-of-the-moment writer so I sometimes write really long posts and by the time I'm done I'm too "spent" to go over them.

I'm only human and I don't get paid to write my blog. So seeing as how I am the "boss" of this blog I can forgive any mistakes.

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I guess that's it for now. I seem to have gotten everything I need out of my system. At least everything that I am willing to share to random people out there.

I'm off to breakfast.

Out.