Midnight Blogging

I've noticed a few things since I started blogging, with regards to blogging.

1. The number of posts I've done per year has decreased. It started with around 89 posts my first year of blogging. Then 56, then 49 I think. What does this mean? Well, I think first of all I've mellowed down since I started this blog. This was originally supposed to be a b*tch blog, where I vent out what I feel about life in general. And if you look back to my earlier posts, this was true. Boy, was I venting.

2. The quality of my writing has deteriorated. Maybe this has something to do with me mellowing down too. Earlier posts were edgy and not quite your usual formats of paragraphs and sentences. One word sentences in one sentence paragraphs. Plus all the angst made my words different. I was more articulate when I was angry, I guess. Or maybe now that I've mellowed down I have no need to vent. I don't know.

3. More "survey" posts rather than personal posts. Check it out. Lotsa "which are you?" or random surveys. Less personal blogs. And majority of my personal posts were just random updates on my life. Nothing interesting. Again, maybe because I've mellowed.

What does this mean? Well, for one, I miss my old writing style. It had an edge, it was different, it was entertaining, and it was damn good. I could make a point using a non-traditional writing style. Scoop Jackson was my writing hero. Now I just ramble.

Plus I'm sorta grateful that I've mellowed down and the angst has sorta died down. It just means either I've grown numb to the crap that happens at work, or I've just become experienced enough not to let the small things bother me. Either way it shows I've grown.

That's not too bad.

Out.

Logic?

Have any of you heard that new promo of Clear Anti-Dandruff Shampoo? The "Have a Black Valentine" commercial?

Well the gist of the commercial is to buck the trend and wear black this Valentine's Day. Yes, why be like everyone else wearing red when you can wear black and stand out in a crowd, with and added bonus of dandruff-free hair!

Okay, the thing that annoys me most about this commercial is the fact that they want us to be different so let's all wear black. Well what if everyone wants to be different so everyone wears black? Then everyone will be the same again.

The media dictates fashion trends and whatnot. They tell us what is nice and what isn't. What looks good when you wear it and all. I remember when I was in grade 7 and low-waist pants were starting to gain momentum I was laughed at at school because my pants were where the original waistline should be.

Anyway my point is why would you listen to what other people think you should wear? If that was the case then you're no different than the others who listen to the media too. If you really want to be different then wear what you think is good, not what the media says is good.

So for a totally different Valentine's Day, just go out and have some fun. To hell with what color clothes you wear...

... and don't forget: when it rains wear a raincoat.

Out.

Annoying

Well today is my official first day without a job. Though I did take yesterday off so I've been a bum for two days. (Why do I keep talking about the fact that I have no work anymore? Maybe it's because it's a new feeling. I have been working for nearly 4 years, after all.)

Got my gym membership cancelled without a hitch, thank goodness. Now I can spend the whole month of February working out before surrendering my card.

That's basically all I have to write.

Out.

Captain Procrastination

Right. Yesterday was my last day at work (unofficially, I guess) so here I am at home.

I was planning on doing a lot of things here now that I've got no job. Cleaning my room, moving into my grandmother's room, practicing 3D, cancelling my gym membership, yadda yadda yadda. You get the drift.

So what have I done so far? I've tried modeling a face in 3D, and it sucks. Where has my mojo gone? First day out of work and my "mad" skills in 3D has left me. Damn.

I've also bonded with my Playstation 2 quite well. Aside from that? My room's still a mess and I haven't moved into my grandmother's room. So there. Captain Procrastination strikes again. Lots of things to do, no drive to do them.

At least I managed to start modeling a face in 3D. The only problem I see is that the face looks good front view but once I go into perspective it starts looking like an alien, which is not what I intended it to be. I am using a car-show girl named Jenny Chu as template for the face. I did one before in the office, never finished it. So I thought it would be a good idea to start all over again now. Plus aim even higher, by rigging her face so she can speak and make facial expressions. I've got all the time in the world anyway.

Well, not really. I've got lots of paperwork to fix, first and foremost of which is the goddamned gym membership. Gotta cancel it TODAY so that my last month will be February. Hopefully I won't have to pay for anything, and I hope that they won't bug me not to cancel it. It's a free country anyway.

So I am out of a job. Because I resigned. Because I am tired. Ironic things happen, like the fact that after filing my resignation our office got a character animation project. It has been a fact among my 3D friends in the office that I've always wanted to do another character animatino project and now I have no chance to participate. Maybe that's the reason why I decided to model again at home. Plus it'll keep me from getting rusty, right?

Well I've procrastinated again. By blogging this time. Amazing.

Out.

Updates

Last January 14, 2008 I filed my resignation. This will be my last week in the office.

It's been a roller coaster ride for nearly four years. Ups and downs, highs and lows, good times and bad times. But as they say, a rolling stone gathers no moss. And I haven't rolled in ages.

While it is difficult to leave something behind after so long, I also realize that I have to move on and meet new people. I've been around this 3D industry in the Philippines for all of my professional life, which is nearly four years only. Yes I'm still working at my first job.

I think it's time to expand my horizons, meet new people and face new challenges. Whatever job opportunity I enter after leaving my current company I will face with an open-mind (and an empty stomach). Hopefully my passion for 3D will be re-energized.

I will be taking some time off, I know it's a contradiction of what I've been saying. I've always told people that they should never quite their jobs until they find a job they can transfer to. Well, shame on me I guess. But the work has been tiring.

I'm looking forward to my time off. I'm looking forward to whatever new opportunities I get. I'm looking forward to shedding the moss that has accumulated around me and rolling off to whatever new destination I'm bound to get to.

Out.