Impatience

I'm too impatient. I want things to happen now. I want things to go my way now.

I have no problem about working for it, since I know you can't get what you want without hard work. Unless you cheat, but I wasn't raised a cheater.

I guess one of the reasons why I'm so frustrated is that when I look at some of my friends, and compare where they are to where I am, I can see that I am so far behind. At least in my eyes. Yes, I am somewhat envious of their situations. They have they're own places, they have they're own vehicles.

I'm renting a condo. If my wife and I need wheels, I have to borrow my mother's car. Nothing wrong with that, to be quite honest. It's just that I want to be able to have those "luxuries" (for lack of a better word) soon.

I do realize that my wife and I currently don't have the capability to either buy our own place or get our own car. This is the reason why I will work hard until around the middle of the year before I start making decisions regarding this.

I have to be patient. See what happens at my current work and if I'll get what I'm hoping for (a raise, obviously). If I don't get what I'm hoping for, I guess that's the time I have to reassess things and create a new plan.

This does not mean I'm not doing anything now. It's just that I'm forcing myself to be patient. I have to give the office one more chance before I start changing my plans. As of now I'm choosing my options wisely.

Nobody said this was going to be easy, but someone said this was going to be a challenge for me. Someone who knows what she's talking about. No, not my mother. But since then it's become abundantly clear that I have to work for what I want, and that nothing will be given to me.

Sad? In a way, yes. But if that's the hand I was dealt with I have no choice but to play it. Folding is not an option.

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I'm Learning

New things are happening to me. Things I'm trying to adapt to as best as I can. It's hard to change, but change I must.

One of these things is my negative thinking. People close to me know how negative I think. Despite the fact that almost no one notices this, I am taking great pains to avoid thinking negative. True I still slip into negativity. But If you ask me, it's not as bad as how I used to think.

It all has to do with letting go. Rather than ranting non-stop about some negative incident that happens, just let it slide. Though I can't do it as quick as some people, I do manage to quell my negativity in a few seconds.

Usually I have to use reasoning to let my negative thoughts go. I've noticed that I need to reason with myself a lot to let go of a lot of things. As long as it helps.

And as long as I can improve. Great.

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A Little Too Late

It has been almost four years since my parents sold our old 1996 Mazda 323 Familia. And I have just recently realized that, despite all it's faults, it was a good car to have.

Let's start with the ugly first. Something was downright wrong with the engine. Despite repeated attempts to have it fixed we could not resolve the problem. Amazingly, after getting sold, the new owner replaced the fuel pump (or something to that extent) and the car started running well again.

Then there was the problem with the headlights. See, this car wasn't parked in the garage so the headlight plastic cover yellowed over time, diffusing the light and weakening the beam. It got so bad that I was constantly driving in high beam at night.

Now for the good things I remember. First off, it was a pretty good car to drive. I am not a racer, nor do I claim that I have amazing driving skills. But this was a car I enjoyed driving briskly. It could take corners well and it accelerated and decelerated to my driving style.

Then there was the stock stereo. The sounds were great, even on stock. I did lack the CD changer, but the cassettes I played were more than enough. Plus the bass and treble were great. I am not an audiophile but the sounds were more than adequate.

If my folks didn't sell that car, then maybe I would have saved some cash to do some improvements to the car. Yes, if this looks familiar it's because I've written about these improvements over and over and over in this blog and in my written journal (that you most likely will not get to read).

I'd start with the headlights. Get new ones fitted, preferably with HID projectors. I would put real HID bulbs, the ones that don't blind oncoming traffic. Plus I'd probably go for the yellow beams. Not only would they improve night-time visibility, they'd also look good with the car. I'd also add some fog lamps for those times when the rain is falling heavily and visibility is just a few feet. Or for the times when I go on road trips.

The next thing I'd probably invest in is a CD changer for the head unit. But with the arrival of iPods and mp3 players, I'd also include an easy access jack for mp3 players. Fortunately the stock head unit of that car had a CD switch and an auxiliary switch.

If I had any more cash left, I'd then improve the rims. Install some nicer rims, maybe 16 or 17 inches. Just to give the car a more unique look. Make it stand out from the crowd. Plus adding lower profile tires will help improve the car's already decent handling.

I'd probably add rain visors just so I can open the window a bit even during the rain.

That's what I'd have basically done with the car had it been with us up to now. But since the Mazda's not with us anymore, I'll have to set my sights on something else.

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Ramblings

Works been tiring lately. Challenging and tiring. But what can I do, if it was that easy maybe they wouldn't get me to do it.

So many things I have to change about my life. I just wish I could do it in one snap. Plus I almost always end up reverting to my old self.

Still, I find this new life very nice. A welcome change to my usual life. One of my biggest problems is I want everything now. When I know that it takes a lot of hard work to get what I want. So I guess I have to buckle down and put in my time.

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Cars, Cars, Cars

There are three cars being sold here in the Philippines that I quite like. Three cars that I would want to be my first ever brand new car. In no particular order, I give you...

The Honda Jazz

The latest Honda Jazz (or Fit in other countries) has everything I'd want in a car. Space, practicality, and good looks. However, after the Ondoy incident (where major flooding in lots of areas) I'd prefer to get a vehicle with good ground clearance. This is also the cheapest of the three cars I like.

The Kia Soul

Reminds me of the Scion xB. But it's way too expensive. I like the looks, I like the space, but for the price I can get something better.

The Hyundai Tucson

Have you seen the new Tucson? What a nice looking car. It has a diesel version too. Plus 4-wheel drive and a nice automatic tranny. This is almost the same price as the Soul. Or a bit more expensive for the top-of-the-line model. But among the three, this is the vehicle I really want.

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