I can say without a doubt that 2017 and 2018 are the most challenging years I have experienced in my entire life. There have been life-altering, attitude changing, faith testing events these past two years that have forced me to evaluate who I am, what I believe in, and how I think.
The bottom line is I'm learning. Learning to fight, to persevere, to be humble, and to break the mold I've conveniently placed myself in. It has not been easy. It has been frustrating. I've seriously considered doing things my younger self would never have done. At the same time, I've also matured and become a much better person than I was.
There are times that I have come close to reverting to my old attitude. And I fight myself, I convince myself I'm better than I was. It is challenging, but I honestly hope to survive this and become better because of this.
Out.
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
Monday, September 10, 2018
[787] Pushing Through
Life is full of ups and downs, and I now know that it's how one reacts to these that determines how one feels.
Well right now it's a big fight for me. Many big things are happening right now, and there's a good chance if ever I read this post again in a few years I will have forgotten what these big things are.
I just know that I will overcome these obstacles. And I will learn something from this.
Out.
Well right now it's a big fight for me. Many big things are happening right now, and there's a good chance if ever I read this post again in a few years I will have forgotten what these big things are.
I just know that I will overcome these obstacles. And I will learn something from this.
Out.
Monday, August 20, 2018
[786] It Always Comes Back to a Beetle
I find it funny that among all the cars I've ever liked, all the dream cars that I've ever (and will ever) have, it always comes back to the classic Volkswagen Beetle.
Right now my top three dream cars (in order) are 1. any classic Volkswagen Beetle; 2. the Ford GT40 Mk 1 or Mr 2; and 3. Audi RS4 Avant, either B5 or B7. Special mention to the 2019 Suzuki Jimny and the Land Rover Defender 90.
But it always comes back to the Beetle.
It's a dying breed, hard to find a well-cared for Beetle here in the Philippines. If there were well maintained Beetles around, they are being sold for a pretty penny. That's not really an issue for me since I have plans to retro-mod the Beetle.
I could probably afford to buy one, but in terms of reliability and safety I won't be too sure of that. Neither will I be sure how rust-free it is or how well it was maintained.
Most of the car related videos I search for in youtube are about the Beetle. Second would be the Suzuki Samurai since my dad and I have been planning on fixing up his Samurai, but that's a different story for some other time.
Out.
Right now my top three dream cars (in order) are 1. any classic Volkswagen Beetle; 2. the Ford GT40 Mk 1 or Mr 2; and 3. Audi RS4 Avant, either B5 or B7. Special mention to the 2019 Suzuki Jimny and the Land Rover Defender 90.
But it always comes back to the Beetle.
It's a dying breed, hard to find a well-cared for Beetle here in the Philippines. If there were well maintained Beetles around, they are being sold for a pretty penny. That's not really an issue for me since I have plans to retro-mod the Beetle.
I could probably afford to buy one, but in terms of reliability and safety I won't be too sure of that. Neither will I be sure how rust-free it is or how well it was maintained.
Most of the car related videos I search for in youtube are about the Beetle. Second would be the Suzuki Samurai since my dad and I have been planning on fixing up his Samurai, but that's a different story for some other time.
Out.
Tuesday, August 14, 2018
[785] Thoughts
Just when you think you're starting to get a grasp of things, guess again.
I'm not writing this to rant or get angry. I just find it sort of frustrating that when things seem to start going my way, other events happen that derail whatever peace of mind I have.
I'm learning to roll with the punches but it is still a challenge to maintain my calm and persevere. The sad (or funny, depending on your point of view) part is that I'm not even the one severely affected by whatever is happening to my life right now. Someone else is. Whatever I'm going through, someone else is going through much worse.
So I keep fighting.
Out.
I'm not writing this to rant or get angry. I just find it sort of frustrating that when things seem to start going my way, other events happen that derail whatever peace of mind I have.
I'm learning to roll with the punches but it is still a challenge to maintain my calm and persevere. The sad (or funny, depending on your point of view) part is that I'm not even the one severely affected by whatever is happening to my life right now. Someone else is. Whatever I'm going through, someone else is going through much worse.
So I keep fighting.
Out.
Friday, August 10, 2018
[784] Challenges
I guess that book was far more helpful than I thought. I still haven't finished reading it.
Right now life has once again thrown a curve ball. Normally I would have been freaking out by now, but ever since I started reading the book I mentioned in my last blog post, I haven't freaked out as bad as usual.
I won't say it's because I've given up and will just take things as they come, because that's not really how I felt when this new set of challenges came up. It was more of an acceptance that this challenge has already begun and that I will have no choice but to go through this. How I go through this is the crucial thing.
I guess once in a while I will most likely revert to my old self. The one who will bitch and complain and ask why things like these happen to me. Like the book says, though, I will always have a choice on how to react. And it is my responsibility to overcome these challenges however I can. Or at least, that's how I understand it.
I am definitely going to read this book again, and again, as long as I start to feel bad or depressed. It gives me perspective, and it will keep me focused on what I have to do to keep myself stable.
Out.
Right now life has once again thrown a curve ball. Normally I would have been freaking out by now, but ever since I started reading the book I mentioned in my last blog post, I haven't freaked out as bad as usual.
I won't say it's because I've given up and will just take things as they come, because that's not really how I felt when this new set of challenges came up. It was more of an acceptance that this challenge has already begun and that I will have no choice but to go through this. How I go through this is the crucial thing.
I guess once in a while I will most likely revert to my old self. The one who will bitch and complain and ask why things like these happen to me. Like the book says, though, I will always have a choice on how to react. And it is my responsibility to overcome these challenges however I can. Or at least, that's how I understand it.
I am definitely going to read this book again, and again, as long as I start to feel bad or depressed. It gives me perspective, and it will keep me focused on what I have to do to keep myself stable.
Out.
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