I think not. Times change, and situations change also. You cannot compare how life was like when you started working twenty years ago to the time I am experiencing now. Why? Because the people that surround me are not the same as the people that surrounded you.
So why I am writing this? Because I am honestly nearing the end of my straw. I don't consider myself a quitter, but I don't consider myself stupid either. My emotional state is being greatly affected by things I can easily point out, does this make me weak if I want to cut ties with it? No.
The only thing preventing me from shedding this source of negativity is the fact that I haven't found an exit plan yet.
But another thing is making me wonder, perhaps it's all me? My lack of self-confidence, my lack of a backbone, could those be making me this neurotic person I am now? Do I think too much?
I have no idea, but I do know that based on how I see things, I was set in this path with very little room for error, and very high expectations. Either from myself or from others. But it isn't helping me out one bit.
Perhaps I bit off more than I could chew? But even if I did, I asked for a way out as early as January, only the asnwer to my request left me stuck between a rock and a hard place.
So I guess I'm a quitter, if I push through with my plans, right? Nope. Because I never quit on my family, and I am looking for better opportunities so we can live a better life. I've been patient the past five years, always being nice and trying to negotiate for things I feel I earned. I never got them, so I guess that makes me stupid. I've been denied at least four times I can remember, and I still stuck to my guns.
I just need a new opportunity.
Out.
