[1122] Resolutions

I don't have any resolutions for 2025. I stopped listing them before.

Change is continuous and should not depend on the changing of the year. I am on a constant journey to try to improve myself as a human being, a father, a husband, a friend, a relative, an in-law, and a professional in my field. And other facets of life that I may have forgotten to type. Basically I am constantly trying to improve myself, period.

As for goals, well health is still my number one goal. New mechanical weighing scale made me weigh more but that just shows me that the journey is challenging but not impossible. I've lost weight before, I can do it again.

I need to be consistent with my exercise. I know many people who have taken up running and are now jogging farther, faster, and longer than me. Comparison is the thief of joy yes, but I do know I need to push myself here because I do need to lose weight and I do need to improve my fitness more as I enter my mid-40s. Technically I'm already in my mid-40s but I'm slowly getting to my late 40s and I would rather be fit, flexible, independent, and still relatively strong when I reach that age.

So basically I still have my goals that haven't changed and don't have a deadline. I just need to keep getting better, healthier, and hopefully happier.

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[1121] My Daughter

My daughter is growing up, and growing up fast. She's in her teenage years already.

I just found out earlier that her batch at school is organizing an interaction (or to use a term we used when I was in high school, a soiree) with an all-boy school. For context my daughter is studying in an all-girl school. Yes, those are still a thing here in the Philippines.

Anyway my wife and I gave her our blessing to attend. This will be the first event she'll be going that begins in the evening. It's a bit worrying for me since I can honestly say I'm a pretty overprotective parent.

So we'll see what happens when this event happens. It's an informal event that isn't sanctioned by the school, as far as I know. So we'll see.

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[1120] 2025

It's a new year, and looking at myself I still have much to change and improve to become an even better person than I am now.

I'd rather not deep dive in this blog, since posts here are public. I do know it's a challenge to change and be consistent with the change. I am my own worst enemy but I am also taking the steps I need to better myself.

So happy new year, I hope for the best for everyone.

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[1119] Looking Back

A lot of interesting things happened this year. Some good, some bad. I've been doing my best this year to try to change how I react to things, and I have to say it's been a relatively mixed bag of results.

Self-awareness helps, but I really have a challenging time changing my perspective and my mentality. I keep trying though, and trying to break really old habits and comfort zones.

It's a process, I guess. I keep trying to remind myself how I should think and behave, and hoping for the best as well. I'm not sure how long I have to keep at this so that I can make it second nature for me, but keep at it I must.

My wife is right, it's all about changing perspective. Rather than trying to focus on the negative things, try to find the bright spot. It may be hard to find, but it's always there. And adapting a relatively positive attitude will help a lot with me going through the rest of my life.

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[1118] Holidays

Call me jaded, negative, pragmatic, or whatever. I just find that the end of the year holidays have been losing their meaning since a few years (decades?) ago. I just use these two weeks of Christmas and New Year as a chance to rest, recharge, and do stuff I normally don't enjoy -- going to social events.

My social battery is usually empty by the time work starts again in the first week of January. The good thing is I'm also relatively recharged and ready to tackle work life again, at least for a few months.

If this sounds sad or depressing, I guess it has something to do with how I think and my perspective in life. I do enjoy the memories I make with my loved ones and in-laws but at the back of my head I still think about the things that do cause me worry. Real life stuff.

Perhaps I should consider worrying less, but that's something I have no idea how to do. I would rather anticipate potential life problems so I can either prevent them or be ready for them.

And this blog post makes it six for December.

Happy holidays, happy new year.

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