Crossroads

It seems I am at a crossroads in my life.

I have made a choice that puts me in a very unsure position regarding my future. And yet I chose this decision. Time to get out of the comfort zone (again) and start being a responsible adult (again).

I'd have to say last year was one hell of a ride. And I guess because of the things I experienced last year it helped me reach this decision I made. Despite all the ups and downs of last year I have no regrets.

Come to think of it, I really don't. I don't regret changing jobs, despite all the negative things that happened. Moving to the gaming industry in the Philippines just reinforced observations I made during my time in the post-production advertising industry of the Philippines. One, that there are lots of posers out there - many people talk the talk but can't walk the walk. Two, people who can sell themselves end up in better opportunities at first, but eventually they will get their comeupance (or whatever the hell the spelling is). Three, good leaders are hard to find. Four, hard work pays off and important people eventually see your true value. Four, you go to your job because you get paid to do it, making friends is just a bonus. Five, if you don't enjoy what you're doing anymore then it's time to move on. Six, you are paid to do your job / role, never let anything get personal unless someone forces you to make it personal.

Ah, it all seems so negative and bleak. But it's not. These things I just wrote down just emphasizes what I believed in all along.

On a side note, I've been working in 3D fields for the past five years. So far, honestly, I feel as if I've been short-changed. Maybe 3D wasn't the right field to invest in during college. I honestly do not know the answer.

But I do know that I am depressed right now, and that maybe that depression is the reason why I feel like 3D isn't the career for me. I really hope that's it's just depression.

Ah my writing sucks. So incoherent.

Out.