[792] Eye Shingles

I was recently diagnosed as having eye shingles.

Apparently my immune system loves these not-so-common ailments. In 2012 I had a really bad case of hand, foot, and mouth disease. HFMD usually happens to children. And of all the adults who were at the outing (my sister-in-law's kids had it) I was the only one who of course got infected.

I don't even know where I got eye shingles. It could be from the hospital, where I've been going to almost every week for my wife's chemotherapy. For those of you who don't know, yes my wife has stage 3A breast cancer. Yes she's doing fine. No, I don't want to talk about it.

So here I am, isolated in my old room. What sucks is that my old room is basically our house's warehouse. It's filled with boxes and stuff that wouldn't fit in our rooms here. And yes, I'm staying here. No TV. Just my laptop and iPad for company.

We'll see how this goes. According to the infectious diseases doctor Maica visited I have to be in isolation for two weeks. Two god-damned weeks.

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[791] Reverting

I guess the book's effects on me has worn off and I need to re-read it.

There are still times I try to remember what The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck taught me. I guess times are just really trying for me right now, hence me reverting to what I do best -- be negative and angry.

I just need to remember to find another perspective and to control my emotions. It just gets so trying sometimes.

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[790] Did the Book Really Work?

I don't know if I am overthinking things again, or if I have forgotten most of the good stuff from reading "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck" but lately I've been pretty emotional again.

I try to remind myself of the major points I learned and remembered for the book, but right now it seems as if I'm in a sinking boat. Try as I might to dump the water out it just keeps coming back in.

Maybe I should try to stop overthinking, the question is how?

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