Vent

I am getting pretty fed up already.

This was not what I had planned on doing, I am a 3D artist. Not an editor, not a pure compositor either. I am willing to do what must be done not because I want to do it, but because I am paid to do it.

Plus how do you expect me to produce what you want to produce when even you cannot make up your mind on how it is supposed to look? I've been doing this task since December 2008 and now you come up with more "brilliant" ideas of yours, asking me to "integrate" it to what I've already done. Well, your new ideas cannot be integrated. I have to start from scratch, basically wasting how many months of previous progress I had come up with.

Can it be done? Yes, given enough time. Yes, because I have no choice. And no, giving me more computers to help in rendering won't speed things up as much as you would want. You remind me of someone I used to work with. Always thinking that more computers mean faster work time. The sad part is you are supposed to be tech savvy. And now you just act like that someone I know.

The other bad part is you aren't even supposed to be the one to make decisions on this little task you have me doing. That's why you have directors and leads, they are supposed to make the calls. You can provide your input if you want but the directors are supposed to be the ones to say if the task is actually good to go or not.

And on that note, I'd like to digress to the part about the director. Thank you. You actually managed to speak out what I was thinking, that the new idea isn't good because we've been working on the previous idea since last year. I was surprised that you can actually take a stand once in a while. The bad part is in the end you still caved in and gave the opening to apply more changes. But I have told you my concerns about this project.

I've given almost everything you guys asked for with regards to this task. And yet every time you get what you want new things pop up. When will this end?

I know when this will end. When I can't make the end-of-the-week deadline you guys are setting. Because of your brilliant ideas which are very hard to execute. And who gets the blame? Me.

Well, f*ck you. Send me another impulsively written and poorly thought out letter and you will see just how much of an assh*le I can be too. I'm getting sick and tired of being everyone's whipping boy.

I am getting fed up with all this sh*t.

Out.